Thursday, September 11, 2008
Time to vent
I've always said I'm more emotional when I'm nursing a baby then when I'm actually pregnant, and for some reason today it's BAD. Today while both kids were sleeping, I actually had some time to lay down and try and take a nap. I usually tun on the TV, it helps me fall asleep, and an episode of Jon and Kate plus 8 came on. I guess they were going back to the hospital where their sextuplets were born and showing the kids all these places they stayed in the NICU and where Jon & Kate lived right after the babies were out of the hospital. They were in a condo until their house was done being built. Kate was emotional saying that "it was the last time their lives were simple, when they only had a family of 4." After she said that, I was just overwhelmed because that's how my family is right now, and I in no way shape or form feel that my life is simple. I know I complain a lot to my friends how difficult it is to have two children now and how hard it is to go places and try and take both kids. But after I see their family, and how they enjoy taking their kids places because they want their children to experience everything they can, I can't help but feel guilty as I stay in my house and only go out to the park or what not because it's too hard still for me to take my children places. I know I'm not adjusted fully yet to having my two kids, but I certainly can not imagine having eight. I know it's kind of a silly comparison, but I think it's all just brought on right now because Chase is at such a difficult stage and age. He overwhelms me a lot and I need to stop and remember what's most important and the things he's doing at the time, are not. That being said, I know how important my family is to me and I know that I want more kids, I just can't imagine right now how it's all going to be. I just have to remember that things get better and how much I love them both!